2013 is a year of realization.
Initially, it started off with the realization that I wasn’t growing up enough. That I was still stagnant, treading on the same ground as I did last year. In my comfort zone, refusing to commit to real changes.
Wasn’t too happy about it, tried to get out there and travel. I travelled and explored, yet still complaining about how short the trip it was for me to experience the places (wished that I could have one month in each country) And it didn’t feel as if I left my comfort zone as I travelled with 3 other guy friends, protected and saved from the hassle of planning for the transportation and accommodation from places to places.
I came back. And disappointed someone who gave me so much. It was only until months later that I figured how selfish and self-centered I was, only cared about justifying the wrongs I did. I’m sorry, and I can never be sorry enough. "The world does not revolve around you (me)"
Then someone constantly reminded me to not take things too seriously.
"You’re only 20, you still have a long way to go"
If I could learn to take things with a pinch of salt, a joke, a comment, a hard truth that is unpleasant to the ears, I will be so much happier. And I have to learn, because I’m just 20 and there’s a long way to go. Given constructive opinions, I would have to embrace them and do something about it. Yes, I commit to getting rid of my tardiness.
There are so much more I could learn. From the little bad habits that I have to managing expectations and my feelings to stay happy. So much more.
And in this coming new year I will pray for the same thing I did last year and last, last year, which is, to not lose myself.
For there are more adventures to come and more lessons to learn